The rains came. The wind blew. And the arctic air covered everything with ice.
And so life goes. Today was the day we’ve worked toward since the diagnosis was first pronounced. We went to bed prepared to get up, get dressed, put on our marching boots and head out to Providence Medical Center for Bud’s first chemo treatment, to be followed by a second treatment tomorrow. But, one look outside and the thick sheet of sparkling ice shook a threatening finger at us, “Don’t even think about going anywhere today.”
Flashbacks from the Heinz Ketchup commercial of 1987 sang back at me;
It’s making me wait.
It’s keeping me, way-yay-yay-yay-yating.”
Yes, I’m that old, but in case you’re not, just click the link to catch up with the song that gave ketchup a whole new identity. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uoLoyg3JKRQ
It’s been a wild ride through weeks of appointments, tests and consults – all leading to the main thing; a treatment plan. We were so close, having completed the last step on December 30th, when we met with an oncology nurse who taught us how to live and thrive through chemo. Sadly, it was one of those meetings that left us feeling more like we had been talked at rather than spoken with. The nurse babbled incessantly, and seemed to feel that checking her buzzing cell phone was an appropriate way to help newbies to cancer feel at ease and forcing this Italian /American/Chicago girl to suppress the urge grab the phone, stomp on it until it broke into tiny pieces and pour it back into her great big purse. Instead, we listened, asked a few questions, took notes, and graciously thanked her for her time – because we all have days when we’re just not on our game. We drove home with nothing more to do than wait for chemo day.
Anticipation – like Heinz Ketchup, is making us wait. Building our suspense. And challenging us to be patient. It both calms and disturbs our sense of urgency. It whets our appetites and creates new opportunities to expect the unexpected. It’s the surprise waiting at the end of the question mark. And the hallelujah of the hopeful heart.
And so we wait. One more day. Because the sooner we get started the sooner we’ll get finished. Thank you for waiting with us.
Love and joy, Sandy
Wait for the LORD; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the LORD! Psalm 27:13