What’s Brewing – Our Journey Through Cancer – Anticipation

Anticipation. anticipation

The rains came. The wind blew. And the arctic air covered everything with ice.

And so life goes. Today was the day we’ve worked toward since the diagnosis was first pronounced. We went to bed prepared to get up, get dressed, put on our marching boots and head out to Providence Medical Center for Bud’s first chemo treatment, to be followed by a second treatment tomorrow. But, one look outside and the thick sheet of sparkling ice shook a threatening finger at us, “Don’t even think about going anywhere today.”

Anticipation.

Flashbacks from the Heinz Ketchup commercial of 1987 sang back at me;

“Anticipation.

Anticipay-yay-tion.

It’s making me wait.

It’s keeping me, way-yay-yay-yay-yating.”

Yes, I’m that old, but in case you’re not, just click the link to catch up with the song that gave ketchup a whole new identity. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uoLoyg3JKRQ

Anticipation.

It’s been a wild ride through weeks of appointments, tests and consults – all leading to the main thing; a treatment plan. We were so close, having completed the last step on December 30th, when we met with an oncology nurse who taught us how to live and thrive through chemo. Sadly, it was one of those meetings that left us feeling more like we had been talked at rather than spoken with. The nurse babbled incessantly, and seemed to feel that checking her buzzing cell phone was an appropriate way to help newbies to cancer feel at ease and forcing this Italian /American/Chicago girl to suppress the urge grab the phone, stomp on it until it broke into tiny pieces and pour it back into her great big purse. Instead, we listened, asked a few questions, took notes, and graciously thanked her for her time – because we all have days when we’re just not on our game. We drove home with nothing more to do than wait for chemo day.

Anticipation – like Heinz Ketchup, is making us wait. Building our suspense. And challenging us to be patient. It both calms and disturbs our sense of urgency. It whets our appetites and creates new opportunities to expect the unexpected. It’s the surprise waiting at the end of the question mark. And the hallelujah of the hopeful heart.

And so we wait. One more day. Because the sooner we get started the sooner we’ll get finished. Thank you for waiting with us.

Love and joy, Sandy

Wait for the LORD; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the LORD! Psalm 27:13

Finish line ahead

8 Responses to What’s Brewing – Our Journey Through Cancer – Anticipation

  1. Carol Clark January 5, 2016 at 2:43 pm #

    Oof! That’s tough to gear yourself up for that and then have to wait. I remember having to read through that list of possible side effects, too. It is so ridiculously terrible that you don’t know whether to laugh or cry. I’m praying this story will be something you both can look back at and laugh about, many years from now.

    Love & prayers,

    Carol

    • Sandy Snavely January 5, 2016 at 5:44 pm #

      Yes it was! And still! So we’ve finished the first treatment today, we have another one tomorrow. It went well and now we’re exhausted. Thank you Carol for praying, I know you pray as one who knows and understands our needs. Love and joy, Sandy

  2. AnnaLee Conti January 6, 2016 at 2:02 pm #

    Sandy, so sorry! There’s nothing worse. That happened to us when we were waiting for Bob’s defibrillator surgery. It got postponed a week because of a paperwork glitch. Then the second week, almost indefinitely when the OR equipment went on the fritz. Waiting is the hardest. God is stretching your faith. My Grandma used to say, “That’s one of the ‘all things’ (that work together for good, Romans 8:28). You two are in our prayers.

  3. Becky Pamer January 7, 2016 at 9:47 pm #

    Oh, Sandy, I’ve been thinking of you and praying for you and Bud. What a way to start a new year. I’m sorry for the frustrating delay (glad it wasn’t longer), also for the exhaustion you’re experiencing right now. I pray you both get some good rest and that the after-effects of treatment are mild.

    May you experience God as the “lifter of your heads.”

    Bless you both.

    • Sandy Snavely January 8, 2016 at 6:07 am #

      Thank you so much Becky. We’re so feeling the power of prayer and the comfort of answers. See you soon for our writers group!

  4. Arletta January 8, 2016 at 7:43 am #

    Hi Sandy,
    Which oncology center is Bud going to?

    • Sandy Snavely January 8, 2016 at 10:39 am #

      We see Dr. Orwoll through Compass Oncology at Providence Professional Bldg. She’s incredibly amazing! So grateful for her.

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